Buh-ByeSexual...

It's 2010,so you know I gotta get the rest of the bullshit on my brain out. And if there's one thing that has caused a bit of bull is my sexuality.
I'm bisexual.
That's it. I am SEXUALLY attracted to both sexes. This does not mean I only have threesomes, or I feel obligated to screw every person I see. And even if I did feel obligated it wouldn't be cuz I'm bisexual...
So even in this day and age I have problems expressing my self through sexuality, I'll elaborate.
When I see a beautiful woman, I am attracted just as much and in the same way as when I see a beautiful man. Certain features about both catch my eye. I love African features, regardless of skin tone...large lips, strong bone structure,nice eyes,smile, you get the point.


Ultimately,because I can only see myself actually settling down with a man, I look at my sexuality as just that, my SEXUAL desire that affects the people I involve myself with.
Some of my friends call me a pimp, I feel I'm honest. I've only had 1 serious relationship w/a woman, while in college, and though I loved her,I enjoyed her,she turned me on,but I didn't feel balanced.I felt the emotional scale of the relationship was tipped too far to one side and neither of us were ready to take any control. Not saying that a man and a woman are needed for that balance,but w/me, it is. And I realized that immediately so when I'm w/a woman it's strictly sexual/platonic.
When in a relationship w/a man,I'm still bisexual,but I'm involved with one person,that man.So call me heterosexual,if it makes ur more comfy. And yes,if I'm committed enough and him and I are on that sexual level, my sexuality just may benefit a couple of his fantasies, I won't lie lol. But I don't let guys feel they are subject to a 3some just cuz I like chicks. He might as well be just as worried bout me hooking up w/a dude as a girl. REAL talk.
Women who have tried to get deep w/me got a chance, I'm open. But it's usually the case where the woman's tired of men and wanna try sumtin new, or it's a fantasy she's played so much in her head she wants to live the life. Others are just following the fad. I'm not riding any of the trains.
I'm me.And the problem w/that is people like me who enjoy both sexes are seen as hoes, loose,or nymphomaniacs. Ppl like me don't wanna run around with rainbow flags nor do we enjoy watching a gay couple get publicly humiliated. Something within me allows me to see the same type of beauty in everyone,male or female, and that shouldn't determine my level of commitment or loyalty to a relationship.
We can't be labeled. And sure, there is moral and ethical responsibility when it comes to marriage, and children, but fuck it I aint worried bout that right now. I'm worried about what makes me happy and keeping the person I'm with happy. That may be a dude,may be a chick.
BUT IF IT AINT YOU...
...don't eeeeeeven worry bout it.
And that's kinda how us bi babies hope you can start seeing it. We just don't care, why?
Cuz everyone's beautiful to us. Especially YOU.
Keep loving each other,but not before you love yourself worms.
PEACE.